My spiritual quest or spiritual development has been an important and ongoing journey. My understanding is never complete and your participation and comments here help me to expand my understandings. My spiritual views have been dramatically shaped and influenced by an internal desire, one that I believe exists in everyone at birth.
We are all molded by our society and upbringing to a point of saturation, which cuts off further development. The children and young people today recognize that dogmatic religious and secularist views are unhealthy for our future as a world community. Our world population is reaching a break out point … to reject religion and embrace spirituality. How have I reached such a controversial point of view?
Well, as a young child I became a quick study and applied myself diligently in studying scriptures and learning from those spiritual people around me. I knew I had a special gift from my Creator, a special closeness that has blessed me in every way throughout my entire life. I had always lived my life honestly and believed in being truthful all the time. I became very fluent in using the scriptures to defend my Christian faith and to attack religious dogma that crippled peoples spiritual growth. I wanted to help others open their minds to spirituality.
As I matured I began seeing weaknesses and problems in the so called “spiritual people” around me and in our Christian society. I could see clearly ways to address these issues, to solve problems, to fix attitudes, ways to move forward to help support and encourage the weak. I saw problems being created where none existed. While I became more and more involved in trying to sort out these discrepancies I began to realize I was fighting against a force that had been so enlightening to me and that struggle was crushing my spirit.
I relied heavily on prayer to keep me sane throughout the struggle against this huge powerful energy that engulfed every square inch of my world. As I continued to grow, now beyond the limiting framework of Christianity, I found it was my reliance on prayer and my connection with the Creator that motivated me to acquire the deeper understandings I needed to continue to grow spiritually.
My relationship with God kept me invigorated and motivated as I grew in enlightenment and understanding to satisfy my own spiritual longings. Those around me could not figure me out. I was alone as my thoughts were unique. I was questioning the authority in our lives, I pushed for clarity and answers, but in the church I was given a standard line something to the effect of “do not lean upon your own understanding”. This may work for others but this would not work for me. I was determined to get the proper understanding. My endless prayers ignited my internal spirit. I was on fire internally to clear the contradictions. I soon realized that the answers I sought would not come from the people around me.
I began to see those people around me, that their life and existence was too shallow or limiting for me. Through constant prayer and reliance on the Creator, I began to see that the new enlightenment of Christianity had now become a curtain to block further growth. I was told in essence to stop looking, to trust and to rely on faith. These concepts were unacceptable to me, I kept rereading Jesus words to “keep seeking, keep asking” I wanted more answers.
Every day began with a long prayer. I integrated new thoughts through personal study and new insights from other resources on self improvement and human development. I began to see things clearer and clearer. I realized that every person had to find their own balance with the Creator. Throughout human history most of mankind has relied on someone else to define that balance for them. Such reliance on others, religion, governments, organizations or anything other than themselves and their connection with the Creator was a life of limited spirituality.
My encouragement for those who still feel as if something is missing despite their close relationship with God, is that there is something missing, and you can find it. As Jesus said, “keep on seeking and you will find”… it’s the seeking that helps one find. It’s the asking that gets the answers.
I noticed in my own quest for growth and enlightenment that whenever I questioned something it created a sense of fear or apprehension from those in my close spiritual circle. I remember having my beliefs challenged in writing I read with intensity wanting the answers. I was warned against such an activity, by a spiritual man I had admired greatly. I however would not ignore my spirit which was compelled to investigate (seek). I digested the information to my own satisfaction. I was inspired and strengthened even more by my own investigation. I believe information is good. The more information, good and bad, the more spiritually balanced one becomes.
I soon began to realize that once a person decides they have “the truth” they close their eyes to further growth. Jesus said, “Happy are those conscious of their spiritual need”, I was encouraged to believe I had all the answers in Jesus “the way the truth and the light” but that was not fulfilling my spiritual need, I was blocking out further spiritual development and insights. I realized that if I stopped asking and I stopped seeking at that point my spiritual life was maximized. One becomes truncated or cut off from further spiritual development and growth.
I saw many of those I loved as frustrated with the lack of growth in their own lives. I wish they could connect with their inner spirit, that internal connection that drives our thinking. Connection with that spirit inside that energy that flows throughout our bodies that is what being spiritual is. Aligning our lives and harmonizing our activities with that internal spirit is key. Spiritual growth is satisfying your spirit, the more our spirit asks for the more answers it is given. My consistent prayer for everyone is to keep your spirit hungry. Never stop looking, never think or believe you have it all.
Our life and happiness can grow unbounded by seeking to satisfy our spirituality. That is our spirit connection internally with the universal energy, the Creator. Jesus in his sermon on the mount taught that when your spirit is down or dissatisfied you are conscious of your spiritual need. I believe that is God’s Spirit internally communicating with you personally. By honestly pursuing your own internal spirit as your guide you will continue to grow and grow. So if you have a question pursue it, if you have a fear confront it, if you have worry address it that is spiritual growth. The more you feel the lack the more you can receive to fill it.
Let your honest direct connection to the spirit, that internal feeling in your stomach match harmoniously with your thinking and actions. That healthy honest spirit being satisfied will enrich your life. When you are in conflict with your inner spirit that is “truth… YOUR Truth” … that is being conscious of your spiritual need. That is genuinely spiritual, that spirit built within us connecting us directly to the Creator, the energy.
Beware when someone tells you how to feel, how or what to think or how to act in a given situation. Listen to the advice of many differing points of view but remember you are the person who must act and live with your life decisions. Always be completely honest with yourself working in harmony with the spirit that flows within you, that’s being spiritual. That is spirituality, and that pursued in every aspect of your life creates an abundance of values. Abundance means an overflow, more than enough, and that allows you to share these values with others. The more you obtain the more you can share and that applies to every aspect of our existence. Remember there is more joy in giving than in receiving. Spiritual is working honestly and harmoniously with your internal spirit. Let it be your guide and motivation in life. Happy are those conscious of their spiritual needs.
I find myself as I pass the half century mark of my life that many of my peers from all walks of life seem to have lost their drive, that fire or passion that makes life so wonderful and fulfilling. I for one am happy to be alive. By continuing to grow and experience new things in life, be them spiritual things, physical health, financial endeavors, personal relationships, anything can be achieved through honest integrity to our own internal spirit which is communicating directly with our Creator. I address everyday with a sense of wonderment and growth and I am eager to find and learn something new every day. My enthusiasm and drive is overwhelming to those around me. My energy comes from the Source of Dynamic Energy and that perfect energy source is within everyone, for those who choose to be conscious of it. Don’t fight it, instead pursue it, believe it, flow with it and the more you connect inside with your own mental thoughts and align them with your internal energy the happier and richer your life will be. That is my thirty cents on spirituality – I invite your feed back!